| My husband said he wanted a divorce and i broke down and OD'd.
Obviously I'm not dead.
They put me in the mental hospital. I pretended to eat, spitting into my cup. I've had fifty calories in 6 days and lost almost ten pounds.
I'm using stimulants to kill my hunger and myself. They're raising my metabolism so high. My heart can't take it. It pounds really hard and I can't walk or stand for long periods of time. But I'm getting thinner so it's all good.
We're going to marriage counseling soon. I really want it to work.
On the upside, my hair is finally purple. I said screw the salon and did it myself and it turned out great! Post pics soon.
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| There was a huge fight between me and my husband. He said he wanted a divorce and said it with all seriousness. I wen;t mad with grief and OD'd. I went to the hospital and I was so upset about being there I didn't eat anything. I told them I was vegan and couldn't eat any of the food because it was all meat or made with butter. Then they gave me a salad covered with cheese. So I pretended to eat banana's and just spit them into my cup. Gross, I know, but it worked.
I lost almost ten pounds and now I'm back on track. My husband and I have fixed things and I haven't touched any food or drinks with calories. I just bleached my hair again so I should be able to put my purple in tomorrow! I have to let it dry first and I don't have a blow dryer so I have to let it air dry. I'll take pictures when it;s done.
So I hope everyone has been well since I've been gone. I missed you girls.
 
Super skinny jeans are my new obsession.
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| there's not too much going on. i got a TON of new (for me) clothes yesterday. 9 boxes full of vintage 80's clothes. for free. I have a whole new wardrobe and i'll prolly sell alot of the stuff I don't like.
I've been hovering between 153-155 since i haven't been watching my weight. I'm feeling good about myself and i think actually eating less now that I'm not so fixated.
kinds tired. gonna smoke a bowl and go to bed. i'll tell you girls more in the morning.
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| I'll be taking a break from Xanga for a while girls.
I've had breaks before, but I never actually planned them, just kind of forgot about the blog for a while.
I feel like I need to just focus on me instead of on losing all the time. Since I've stopped watching it so much it's gone down and doesn't rule my life.
i like that feeling.
i'm sorry to everyone, especially the challenge girls.
i just need this for me.
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